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I post publicly at my website http://www.runningnekkid.com/ which is LJ syndicated at runningnekkidfd. That's where I try to do more writing writing, with varying degrees of success. I would love it if you visited me there, too.

I hope you're doing well. And if you're not, I hope that you have good people around you who can help make it bearable until you are well. Thank you for coming by.

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  • Fri, 13:41: Kahoolawe Commission needs $100,000 by June 15 or it will close access to island http://t.co/dZhg0yfhp0 via @MauiTime
  • Fri, 14:06: Sitting here trying to clean up my face from crying and the exterminator knocks on my door to let me know he'll be doing an ant treatment.
  • Fri, 14:07: He then tells me we should take care of the weeds and stuff alongside the house. I'm like, yeah, I know, we have a lot of work to do.
  • Fri, 14:08: And I feel like I know my life is a shambles my yard is a shambles my house is a shambles why do I ever bother trying blah blah blah.
  • Fri, 14:09: Phone in therapy session was brutal. I cried more than I have ever cried during a session. Ever.
  • Fri, 14:09: 25 years ago this week I lost the boy who came into my life like a light during a cold, deep, darkness. https://t.co/kYY30b5NPU
  • Fri, 14:13: The fact that Josh died in his sleep at fifteen makes the whole universe feel like raw sewage.
  • Fri, 14:15: The heaviness of everything right now isn't lost on me. Ian is away this week and I am alone. Jonas is 15 now, the last age Josh ever knew.
  • Fri, 14:18: And now I have to play a board game with Iliana, which is good for both of us.
  • Fri, 16:43: Dad doing needlepoint while waiting for his kid to be done with gymnastics. I am jealous of his skillz, yo.

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  • Tue, 15:46: Everything takes so bleeping long. #amwriting
  • Tue, 17:29: Keep putting off the call I need to make to provide documentation of my Hawaiian ancestry because the whole thing is so triggery.
  • Tue, 17:31: I 100% feel like I'm not Hawaiian enough, mostly because my parents (mostly Mom) raised me to be a good white girl.
  • Tue, 17:32: Like, on my birth certificate, my parents listed me and my siblings as "Caucasian" even though we are primarily Pacific Islander.
  • Tue, 17:34: I mean, we for sure have Caucasian in us and I'm not sad, etc that it's listed. I just wish my Kanaka Maoli & Chamorro parts were, too.
  • Tue, 17:36: But my mom, from whom I get all my Chamorro ancestry, mostly introduced herself as a Swedish lady because being white was better.
  • Tue, 17:37: I remember when my mom went to send us to Kamehameha Explorations and it was a big to-do to get us in because of our birth certificates.
  • Tue, 17:38: She had to have my Kupuna go in with her certificate, and my dad's, and mine, to show the lineage.
  • Tue, 17:39: I had to prove I was Hawaiian enough to learn about the ancestry I had been learning about my entire life. I remember being really ashamed.
  • Tue, 17:40: And now here I am having to do the exact same thing to prove my Hawaiian-ness and I am feeling really...hurt...by the whole thing. ??
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  • Mon, 21:15: RT @abandonedpics: Japanese WWII warplane lies wrecked in shallow water off Guam http://t.co/BxhklBD3Nf
  • Tue, 09:49: Teenager is out of school because the teachers are protesting. I told him if he got showered, dressed, ate breakfast I'd take him somewhere.
  • Tue, 09:50: Which means I guess we're staying home today because OH NO HE CAN'T POSSIBLY SHOWER. I MEAN.
  • Tue, 11:45: Had a good conversation with Jonas that reminded me of this: How I Explained Mental Illness to My Kid https://t.co/cputJ8wpmz

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  • Wed, 12:48: Updated my About page today, and my favorite part is still the "praise" I got from my friend Karen: http://t.co/THRjmJuOjk
  • Wed, 12:50: It was in response to the giant "brain barf" emails we send each other because we're terrible at keeping in touch regularly.
  • Wed, 13:27: LOVE. When clouds block stars and planets used for navigation, wayfinders use ocean swells to guide their voyage. https://t.co/RbOJiX7iW1
  • Wed, 13:45: Last night I had one of those dreams that made me ingest something I always knew in a whole new, much deeper way.
  • Wed, 13:46: I don't remember the specifics, except my dad and kupuna were both there, as was my ex-husband. It was really uncomfortable.
  • Wed, 13:48: At one point my dad just looked at me and said "[Ex] doesn't get it. Both his folks AND his grandma are still alive." I was like "OMG yeah."
  • Wed, 13:52: And then I said something something lack of empathy, something something and I woke up and understood I'm not crazy for being bereaved.
  • Wed, 13:59: Or, I guess I should say I never have been. Ex got super frustrated with my years long grief processes, and wanted me to move on already.
  • Wed, 14:00: Which is on him, not me. Okay, subconscious, I get it. Thanks for bringing my dad back for a night and having him tell me Important things.
  • Wed, 14:02: Also, Kupuna looked so beautful. So seriously, subconscious, Thank You.
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  • Mon, 12:43: RT @oha_hawaii: The ʻŌlelo of the Week is KULEANA. Plz RT to perpetuate #OleloHawaii. E ola mau ka ʻōlelo Hawaiʻi! http://t.co/so1v0syTGC
  • Mon, 20:09: RTing this picture forever. @ridingburritos https://t.co/HIpMz0Jc5w
  • Mon, 20:31: The more my son accepts his Autism and embraces his stimming behaviors, the better he feels and is able to deal with this ridiculous planet.
  • Mon, 20:32: Which makes me feel like such a shit Mom for the many years before I knew he was Autistic, and I tried to "correct" his stimming. Ugh.
  • Mon, 20:33: So, it honestly is the more *I* accept my son's Autism and embrace his stimming, the more he accepts himself and the better we all are.
  • Mon, 20:34: I can't go back in time and undo what I did out of ignorance and misguided fear, but I can go forward from here. Thank goodness.
  • Mon, 20:37: Previous tweets are a result of me watching my son when his teevee show went haywire. He flapped and grunted for sec, then fixed it.
  • Mon, 20:40: Last year before diagnosis and therapy (and MUCH acceptance), the haywire teevee show would have led to full on meltdown.

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